Well I am still here despite the doom and gloom of the last post. I considered removing it but if I am going to tell the complete story, then I have to tell the good and the bad I guess.
Have things improved? No, no really. I still get very depressed, frustrated and angry but there is the occasional good day and those are the ones that help a bit.
Obviously 2020 was a shocker of a year for the whole world and I guess things like that tend to put my own woes into some sort of perspective.
My life didn’t change much because of Covid19 and those I love are still here so I am certainly grateful for that.
I have had to wind back the work I do online because I find it all a bit much these days. The main website is a total waste of time in any case as there is little feedback and almost no revenue from it to help with the cost of keeping it on line.
I concentrate on making videos for the YouTube channel and the small amount of money that comes in from that helps to pay for keeping all the other stuff going. I still have to fund most of it out of my own pocket but I am used to that by now. It is pretty obvious that I am never going to be rich.
It is mostly just one day at a time now, planning for things isn’t easy and my typing (yes I have corrected most of this page) is still deteriorating.
My biggest problem is an almost total lack of enthusiasm for doing anything. I force myself to get some things done but compared to what I once did, today I am almost at a stand still.