I always seem to be waiting for something to get sorted out so that I can get on with what I want to do before my time runs out.
One of the main items on my ‘bucket list’ is to visit and film as many towns in Western Australia as I can.
To that end we bought an old converted Toyota Coaster bus so that we can travel around the state. Since we have had it, the rotten thing has broken down several times and the repair bills (including a re-built engine) have been astronomical!
We are waiting, yet again, to hear back from the mechanics and find out what the latest expense is going to be. The trouble is, they NEVER seem to get back to us.
We chase them on the phone and harass them by email but it does no good. They just take their own sweet time and meanwhile I sit and fume about all the time being wasted. The trouble is, they seem to be good mechanics and everyone else I have tried has been a waste of space, so I have no choice.
We have perfect weather right now but winter is approaching so I want to be on the road. Argh! it is just so frustrating. I can feel the clock ticking and I just want to get on with things but there always seems to be someone holding me back.
For most of my adult life I have written poetry. I love the bush ballad style of great Australian poets like Banjo Paterson and Henry Lawson and I have written quite a few ballads.
I have gradually lost the ability to write this way and I had always hoped that someone would eventually set some of my words to music as I have no musical talent at all.
Some time ago, Australian country singer Graham Rodger picked up one of my ballads, The Eagle, and set it to music. I was ‘over the moon’ to finally have one of my ballads turned into a song.
Now Graham has picked up a second ballad, ‘No More Waltzing Matilda’ and has also turned that into a song. To say I am pleased would be the under-statement of the year!
I have had a particularly bad couple of days with losing items that led to me losing my temper.
First of all I lost a phone, not the cheap phone of course, it had to be the expensive one. I ‘knew’ exactly where I had put it but when I went to get it, it was gone….
I then turned the house upside down trying to find it but the location it is hiding in still remains a complete mystery.
I don’t think I am at the point where I am putting things in silly places, like the fridge or the oven but I have looked in all the logical places and well, it just isn’t there. It will be interesting to see where it is when it does turn up (if it does).
Next I lost a spark plug that I needed to service the generator. I picked up two plugs, one was the one I needed and one was from an older generator. Guess which one was still there when it came time to do the job?
Eventually I found the one I wanted, I had wandered off outside and put it down on the patio table and instantly forgot where it was.
Then I lost the key to the angle grinder and was unable to do the job I had planned. I had even bought new grinder discs and had everything ready to go but without the grinder key I was stuffed.
That is when I lost my temper.
The frustration just got the better of me but the big worry is, as this condition gets worse, will I end up driving away the people who care about me? I know that there are limits to everyone’s tolerance.
My posts are like buses, nothing for days then three come along all at once 🙂
There are some things we can do to help ourselves, at least in the early stages of this condition and I have come up with a few that I use, or promise myself I will at least work on. If anyone has more suggestions please leave a comment so we can share our ‘Coping Strategies’ – That’s how the text books love to label it.
- Post-It notes. Make a habit of writing yourself notes and posting them where you will notice them.
- ‘A place for everything, and everything it its place.’ That is what my Dad used to say and now I try very hard to make it a part of my life. If I know where things are because I ALWAYS put them there then I can find them just by habit. I am not relying on my memory so much. There are times when I don’t do this and that is when the melt-downs can happen.
- Learn to ask for help when you need it. Ok, so I suck at this one. I have always been independent despite the fact that I also have a life-long sight impairment. In fact it was my eyesight problem that made me fiercely independent in the first place. I am trying to get over that and I do ask for help sometimes so that is a bit of an improvement but I still have to work on it…
- Try not to fret about the things you have no control over. Bills will sometimes not get paid, the rubbish might not go out on the right day for collection, well so what? The bill WILL get paid eventually and the bin will go out when it gets stinky enough. Some things aren’t worth worrying too much about. Concentrate on dealing with the stuff you still have some control over. I have a special spot for bills (no it isn’t the waste paper bin) and sooner or later I notice that something has been sitting there for a while and I check to see if I should have paid it. If that is the case, then I pay it online (just about everything can be paid that way now) and it is over with.
- Don’t put off the ‘bucket list’. I had a friend die from cancer a couple of years back and right from the moment of her diagnosis, she made an effort to do everything she wanted to do before it was too late. If there is something you really want to do and the only thing that is stopping you is fear of the unknown, get out there and do it!
Well those are my initial suggestions, I am guessing there are all sorts of others that can help so if you have some ideas please comment.
Life isn’t all doom and gloom, in fact far from it.
I am still able to do quite a bit and although the majority of posts on here tend to be somewhat negative, I don’t want to give the impression that life is all bad.
To quote the Aussie songwriter John Williamson, ‘Good news never made a paper sell’ (1) and we probably dwell on the negative more than the positive aspects in life.
Last week we were able to go away, down to a lovely seaside town in the south west of Western Australia called Augusta.
I had the joy of being there with those I love and I was able to just sit by the Hardy Inlet in the wee hours of the morning and watch the sun come up.
This is the kind of place that recharges my batteries and helps me to ‘centre myself’ again.
This was a shot I took as I sat and just soaked in the beauty and peace of this lovely place.
(1) From the song ‘Cootamundra Wattle’. If you haven’t heard it, do yourself a favour and have a listen, the words are exceptional. There is a copy on You Tube at : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AN_AqUK_3LM
There are times when I feel very stressed without having any reason to do so.
Noise more than anything else contributes to the stress. I seek peace and quiet whenever I can find it, which is rare.
As I become more dependent on others, I am losing my ability to just be alone for a while.
I can go nowhere without someone taking me there and while it is nice to have people who care about me enough to want to do that, I miss just being able to go somewhere and do something ON MY OWN.
I have next to no personal space and more and more I am treated as an invalid. Yes I know I manage to damage myself, stick knives into my hand when cutting food, spill hot oil on myself and do all sorts of stupid clumsy things but I still have a need to try and do what I can.
There are days when I just want to shut myself off from everyone, to just be without having to respond to others needs. It isn’t everyday, it isn’t even often, but there are days, like today, when I would just like to be left alone…..
It isn’t my intention to turn this blog into some sort of daily or weekly diary, I have way too much to do to even contemplate doing that.
What I intend is to make notes here when I feel something has either changed with my condition or I have something specific to say about it.
I keep myself pretty well occupied as you will see for the list of online resources I am currently responsible for.
Some, like the Malaysian Cooking site, have started to drop away as I don’t have enough time to devote to them but there is just so much to get done and only me to do it.
Western Australia Now and Then : http://www.wanowandthen.com/
Belle’s Veggie Garden : http://www.wanowandthen.com/garden/
Bush Ballads and Bulldust : http://www.wanowandthen.com/Ballads/index.html
Let’s Eat Malaysian : http://www.letseatmalaysian.com/
Belle’s Beauty Blog : http://www.bellesbeautyblog.com/
Dorothy Loader Watercolour Portraits : http://www.wanowandthen.com/Dorothy/
Rosabelle. Colour Pencil Artist : http://www.wanowandthen.com/petart/
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